suddenly you realised that you are all alone My name is mei yin and some call me estrella. Trying to figure where to go from where I am. Because in life, only the best gets notice.

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Maybe it's because you let that person stay too long in your heart, that's why you feel the pain.
You can never get enough of this stuff ♥ 10:17 PM


Not in the best of mood today.

Somehow I find it hard to communicate with people nowadays. I wonder why. It's just so tiring to figure out what everybody wants. I need to be so cautious when I speak. So I tell myself, "Just do whatever you want, just do whatever makes you happy."

And I know my temper is getting out of hand. I have had problem controlling it myself. And so I keep to myself more.

And so I quit trying to figure you out.
You can never get enough of this stuff ♥ 12:44 PM


The terrible moment when anger turns to tears.

Fuck you. Fuck the world. Fuck whoever. Bad things always comes together. I hate it when I cannot come up with better ways to make myself feel better I started crying and crying. Just like now. I feel like screaming fuck you all. Fuck you. And to think you have a shitty day outside, you want to go home to find some peace and you get even more shit at home. At times like these, i start to think who do i have in this world that i can depend on?

I know people care in different ways. I know, i know, i know. I just want to kick out a fuss, cry and make some noise and be childish and when I cry and cry and absolutely hate myself, someone will come and give me a hug and tell me that they love me and everything will be okay. Nobody really absolutely gives a shit about me.
You can never get enough of this stuff ♥ 11:26 PM


Never give up or trying too hard?

Me and my stupid mouth. Just when I say I will never fall sick. Sneezing like nobody's business now. Way too fast. Just when I need to stay awake to chiong report. NICE. AHHHHHHHHHHH super tempted to just go sleep BUT let me remind myself once again, I'm way behind time.

On a side note, HELLO I WONDER WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU THINKING? PURE LAZINESS? PECULIAR PECULIAR or am i thinking too much?

Oh well, here we go again.
You can never get enough of this stuff ♥ 10:23 PM


Maybe this is it.

Started 2012 really peacefully. Simple dinner. No booze, no partying, no crazy encounters, no squeezing, no shouting, no hangovers, no nothing. Hang out with the clique at vian's house, complaining about the crappy tv programs at every single channels, watching local celebs trying to sing and dance but they all barely make it OMG. Cheap thrill cos we got a pretty good view of the fireworks over at JB HAHAHAHA. Played taboo and the funniest thing is when the word 'SANTA CLAUS' came out, good old jordan just shout, "the Finnish Fat Man you get it??!!"

Tomorrow's school again. I've got assignment due on 6th Jan and 11th Jan. Haven't type a single word. GG.
You can never get enough of this stuff ♥ 10:06 PM




come on barbie, let's go party.

I foresee a good year to come. 2012, let's go!
You can never get enough of this stuff ♥ 3:34 PM


Endless possibilities.



Never tried to deny the fact that I'm an ultimate fangirl. Yes I am one when it comes to KEYBUM >.< So when you daydream, reality become less harsh, days passed by quite fast. That is exactly what I need.

Somehow I don't understand why am I still hoping. Such foolish actions, shall learn not to be nice. Gonna take a step back and if someone comes along and take you away, then let this be fate. I will be all miserable all over again but I know I will survive like I always did.

Life's been kind of screwed. Insomnia almost every single night now, it is rather scary. I need to repay my sleep debt but it is so hard to fall asleep nowadays and I don't know what exactly is the cause of it. AND AND AND, 2012 is coming, absolutely haven't touch any school work yet. I foreseeee panic attacks and more sleepless night to come. Whyyyyyyyyyy you never learn, meiyinquek?
You can never get enough of this stuff ♥ 12:53 AM


I am so so so tired. I am so so so tired. Merry Christmas all but it's not very merry for me though. I feel like I worked like an elf this christmas. It's like rushing for project assignment but ive got the drive just thinking about ppl's happy faces when they receive something from me. It keeps me going till the wee hours in the morning.

I am so so so tired because I spent the entire day giving, I didn't really do anything I really want to do on Christmas. I absolutely did not get to feast on anything. I didn't get to watch shelock holmes. I tried too hard and I cried. I feel so upset this xmas. High expectations really brings greater disappointment. No matter how long time passes, some things never change, some people stays the same. I questioned myself every single day, why? Why go through all that trouble? Why?

If you really want something, aren't you determined to get it? If the person truly matters, won't you want to give your all to make them happy? If all this matter, wouldn't you try your best to make things work? Even the tiniest thing? Correct me if I'm wrong.

You never failed to make me feel so insignificant. I feel like I'm trying to hard, begging for your attention and I fly over the moon when you just simply turn your head and look at me.

This, has got to stop.
You can never get enough of this stuff ♥ 10:57 PM


"Take chances. Tell the truth. Date someone totally wrong for you.
Say no. Get to know someone random. Be random.
Fall in love. Sing out loud. Laugh at a stupid joke till your stomach hurts.
Say i love you. Cry. Apologize. Laugh till you cry.
Tell someone how much they mean to you. Let someone know what they're missing.
Assert your right. Live with intention. Walk to the edge.
Play with abandon. Choose with no regret. Continue to learn. Do what you love."
You can never get enough of this stuff ♥ 8:46 PM


take us back to the beginning.



Perks of working in USS. Took BSG and Transformers continuously the entire day without having to queue at all. The rain's playing games with us and the peak of the entire day of fun came when me, donn and cheeyong were all strapped and buckled up on Cylon, all ready to battle when the rain started pouring like mad. Rain slapping our face like nobody's business and Cylon was at full speed. WE ARE FREAKING SITTING ON THE FIRST ROW. Epic, it's like JPR but Cylon version. That probably explains why my head's feeling all light and all that random sneezing now.

And so we played all day and I become a happy girl all over again. Wonderland was fun and I wish for more happy days ahead.

On a sidenote, YES I FINALLY DITCH MR SONY ERICSSON (you've been a great companion but I deserve so much better) AND HOOKED UP WITH APPLE 4S. Wahahahah. One big hole this December with all that shopping for myself. ZERO xmas present settled. GG.

I know I will miss you when you go away.
You can never get enough of this stuff ♥ 1:39 AM


Its the season of giving so I gave you away. Goodbye my love.

Wish things were that simple. 2012's gonna come in around 2 weeks time, time passes by so quickly it's freaking me out. Come to think of it, there's so many things I want to accomplish but I never really get myself down to completing them. And so everyone's talking about new year resolution, I don't even know exactly what I want. Everything's here and there and everywhere. When will I ever learn?

Been shopping too much online, the guilt's kinda creeping in on me already. It seems like the more I want to stop myself, the more I get tempted to buy things. Oh my god. Somebody needs to stop me. I need to pack my room but I don't really know where to start with. AHHHHHHHH and so the long list of things to complete and so the procrastination starts.
You can never get enough of this stuff ♥ 1:10 AM


You joke around cos you are afraid to take anything seriously. Because if you take things seriously, they matter.

Finally, a break from school. Been working since then though, so I barely rest at all. Still keeping myself busy so that I have less time to think of nonsensical shit. Still don't know what to do with myself. Still have the thought of keeping you all to myself, but I'm barely even near you. You are so much harder to read these days and the idea of you talking so much with the other girl scares me. You are probably gone any time now. I am still waiting and I don't understand why the hell I let myself into this.
You can never get enough of this stuff ♥ 2:18 AM


I don't really know much about you anymore. We've been through this cycle so many times, I wonder if you even remember.

I want to be the first to leave and let you go because I don't want you to let me go because of someone else.

Please give me the strength to carry on.
You can never get enough of this stuff ♥ 1:27 AM


Thanks for reminding me why I hate my job sometimes.
You can never get enough of this stuff ♥ 11:52 AM


Even though I think I am having a panic attack now cos I feel like puking and my brain is hurting like mad now, I obviously don't really know how to make good choices. Shame of me, having stayed home for 2 days, read through the case and draft an outline but I don't know how to start my first sentence for my intro and I'm already stuck. To think I should be spending all my time figuring out how to complete my report and here I am blogging. Shame on me. I used to be able to do last minute work, in fact, the stress used to be a driving force, pushing me to give it a best shot. Used to. Past tense. I still can't figure what the hell happen to me. But coming back to my point, I have less than 3 days to complete my report and I still haven't type my first sentence despite having most of the resources surrounding me. I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO CHAIN THEM ALL UP. Fuck.
You can never get enough of this stuff ♥ 10:23 PM